此刻~我感到好孤独...好寂寞 T^T

I dont know what going on with me...
Juz suddenly feel so lonely...like no frenz xD
Maybe coz my hp's run out of credit,
n i'm not sms-ing anyone so i feel not used to it...T^T

Although I got many friends in my life,
but sometimes i feel so lonely n it's scare me... :(
I though if i hav many friends,
i wouldnt be alone n hav that scare feeling bother me agn...
but i'm wrong!
No matter how many friends u hav,
sometimes u'll feel like u the only person left in this world...
No 1 is there for u forever...

I still remember when i was 5+ years old,

I often being left in the room alone sleeping...

then I will suddenly wake up...

n I saw everything around me is dark.... 

no one is there for me... I was so scared...

So~I cry as hard as i can...hoping my parents heard it xD

That insiden repeated agn n agn n my childhood...

Untill it turn into a nightmare...n I still scare when dream bout it T^T

I swear to hav many friends as i could...

so i wouldnt feel alone agn...xD

but nw i knw is not working...

I still fear to it...the nightmare came back yesterday...

What can i do??? so juz be it...used to it ordy...xD

_-THE END-_

Juz nw~i go n see ur blog...xD
I not sure if the guy u mention is me or not???
If is me...good laa...coz u say there wouldnt be "us" anymore..
Since is past~then let it juz be the past...
Although i'm reluctant to let go...
but it still hav to go...coz we both still go our path to go through...
we nid to move on...xD
 Wish u luck :) GOD BLESS U :D

最近的事+心情

我回来了...><'''

有人想念等我更新blog吗？？？xD

哈哈（不要脸的我）

最近的我好烦哦...

多么希望身边有个小叮当为我解忧... 

哈哈 xD

我们分手了...在一起了29天 xD

相信没有我在,你会过得更好... :)

那个便当是我第一次为你准备...也是最后一次了xD

祝你可以找到更好的他 ^^

她也走了~

班上又少了个人 :(

变得好沉默去了...

之前每次都习惯叫你的名字了...

今天你不在~我很不习惯 T.T

那天晚上,接到消息...你明天突然要离开学校了...

我一整晚都睡不着...

很多话还没跟你说的...就熬夜写了5面的信...

过后准备爱心便当给你...xD

早上七早八早在学校等你...

虽然一整晚没睡,但那天看着你...我一点也不累 XP

还特地留校...送你离开 :P 

再用我最后的利用钱买棉花糖送你 :)

看到酱多人抱你...自己也想要 >< 哈哈

可是你的爸妈在,我不敢 xD 哈哈

就只能跟你爸妈...还有握手 xD 哈哈

今天班长问我“为什么不去追你呢？”

我也想..可是最后只会带来悲伤...

所以我选择友情 :)

今天你不在~我很emo去叻...

你知道吗？？？

为什么这个世界要酱复杂？？？

我一直搞不懂...为什么要有酱多宗教/种族？？？

为什么这个世界要这么大？？？

导致人生中离别不断得发生...

为什么有缘却无份？？？

明明彼此喜欢对方的...却不能在一起 

就是因为复杂的世界...导致我们人生更复杂...xD

好烦哦~我会不会得到忧郁症呢？？？

 

Form 6的生活...

The lifestyle that driving me crazy...xD
When you're in form 6...u nid to learn to be inderpendent...
that's the most hard part that i nvr learn... T_T
I cant face it alone...I nid someone to change me...but u not here!! Dickson!!
who willing to spend time for me??? i guess no 1..
No 1 can save u..if u juz stand there n looking to the sky...
I guess i'm juz gonna being left at the side n die slowly from inside...
I'm oso dun wan drag others ppl down coz me...
Nw~u at form 6...No 1 care if u blur or not...
Everybody is about themself nw...
Not like i'm used to at Form 5...
Dickson~my best frenz...we will always ask each other...
Dickson: Did u understand what teacher teaching???
Me: Not really...
Dickson : Here! let me explain to u...
Me: Okay~thx :)
That's why i used to it ordy...
always hav someone that care bout me in any way...xD
That's why i so nid u nw...my frenz...xD
I thought i met someone like u...but she oso gone ordy...
haiz~i'm destined to face this my own fate alone tis time... :(
Oh God~sometimes i wish...if u juz bring me away from this world...
I rather being at your side n bless my frenz from the top... :)
When u're in form 6...some ppl used u oni when they needed u...
but when u nid them,they will juz giv u the looks that u regret asking their's help...
This is reality in life...everyone is fighting for themself...selfishness everywhere...
If u juz stand there n let them use u...1 day u'll find urself on the bottom of their foot...xD
n they're laughing u at the top...
I'm oso wan fighting for myself to gain a place to stand...
but there always something holding me back...
Oh Mighty God~I hope u heard my prayer...send an angel to help me... :)

My friends were back in Miri ordy...
but we havent planning any outing actvity...
except the 1 on my birthday...xD
Patrick...Albert...Dickson u three nw busy working...
i'm busy missing u guys...u knw???
nw!!! we all cant gathering like always ordy...xD
we all got our personal life style nid to go through...
but i'm never stop thinking wat u guys are doing???
Okay lah~I'm gonna stop at here ordy...
I'm juz want to say that I MISS yoU guys a lot... xD

FRENZ FOREVER :)

事事不顺 T.T

今天到底是怎么啦？？？

为什么做什么事情都不顺的 TT

朋友回来了...妈妈生日要到了 xD

现在最需要的就是 钱钱钱 TT

我说过~我不喜欢跟父母掏钱的...

所以我又跑去雅京做工...

做好工后~就去教堂...

虽然下着大雨...可是我还是从巴刹走到教堂 :P

因为我想快点把聚会搞好就去拍拖 xD

想提早聚会...尽然大家晚上都不能来...xD

打了这么多通电话...结果还是没人来...

剩我跟民还有大姐Vivian 罢了...很气啊~

我对我的少团感到很失望啊!!!

所以聚会就取消了(可是她又不信我...早知道就在教堂发呆就好)

就换上衣服...很兴奋的在雨中慢步 xD

走了45分钟+迷路一次...

终于到达地宫了 :)

进去时，就被一个推销员挡住...

介绍产品给我,还涂在我脸上...很生气哦

冲去厕所马上洗掉...乱乱碰我的脸!!!

我从不用洗脸的产品...也不想用!!!

看到大姐后~

就紧张因为要见到她了...

大姐说要安排我们去约会 xD

本来以为可以给她惊喜....

哪里知道反过来...自己中招 TT

解释什么都没用的了!!!

真的不是故意不说我会来的...

只是想给你惊喜 TT

从教堂走路到地宫...

只是想可以有时间跟你相处...

却~ 我不想发脾气...也许都是我的错

过后电话又没电...朋友通知不到我...

跟朋友说了~想陪她到9+pm...

过后再去看戏 xD

结果~不想让你看到我一直不开心...

所以我提早离开...也不知道要去哪？？

就想回家...怕朋友找不到我。。。

再次淋着雨~冷？？？发抖？？？

都不管了!!!生病就生病啦!!! 最好病死我算了!!!

回到家~本来想跟家人出...

可是答应了朋友....

过后家人出了~朋友又说换去明天出!!!

啊~~~现在一个人在家...对着电脑发呆!!!

想着...我到底哪里做错了？？？

每次都惹你生气 TT 事事都做好!!!

今天还是我第一次跟女生出...

觉得很尴尬...就走在后面...

为了你~我今天还是去了...

抛弃“尴尬” “害羞” “生病” 的我...

跑到地宫找你~但你都不稀罕...TT

我只是不想显示我的软弱...

全部人都希望可以在女朋友面前做到最好...

我也想...只是我不知如何是好 TT

算了~今天事事都不顺!!!

真的想给车撞下...昏迷不醒

就什么都不用管了!!!

(-_爱心便当_-)

今天好开心哦...

有人为我准备爱心便当叻...xD

班上的人看到了...

就莫名其妙的high起来。。。

尴尬死了...可是心里还是很开心 :)

第一次有爱心便当吃嘛...xD

其实今天还没来之前就决定不吃午餐了

为了要省钱...我的brother要回来了。。。

不然没钱出去玩...等下没人请你们 :P 哈哈

哪里知道...酱巧她准备了我的午餐...

救了我的肚子...xP感激不尽 哈哈

今天我有stay...

为什么呢？？？不知道xD

想做功课...又不会...haiz~~~ TT

连Form 4的也是...惭愧啊!!!

亏我数学还拿A的 xD 哈哈

只好跑去打篮球...嘻嘻

好才今天我有Stay...让我又发现一个秘密 xD

真的很佩服自己勒...xD

想当初~我跟我的兄弟是八卦侦探王...xP

好不要脸的说 哈哈

没有什么八卦我们不知道的...秘密都可以轻易挖出来 xD哈哈

好怀念哦...现在只剩我一个人好八卦了 TT

不错嘛...尽然在短短两个星期内,发现2个秘密...xD

我想继续调查下去勒...xD 哈哈

明天去审问当事人 ...

我又来八卦八卦了 xD 呵呵

谁叫我酱Gei BO...= ='''

重点是：谢谢你准备的爱心便当。。。

非常好吃勒...好才没有菜(我不喜欢吃xD)

虽然喉咙痛，但还是吃得很开心呐^^